Sunday, April 17th, 2005
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9:09 pm - And baby, I wished for you
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half the reason i feel like this is due to the lack of my medication. why the fuck wont i just take it. when i can drive, starting friday, i'll go pick up a refill at the pharmacy. then suddenly life will be fine...
for now, i'm a paranoid, depressed fuck. i just guess i'm getting cold feet. i keep thinking he's going to leave me or what would happen if we took a break or i need something to make me feel secure about my relationship again...i've also been have major body complex issues. my sudden 16 lbs. weight gain was quite a smack in the face. so let's blame it on the BC. and let's blame my current longing for an eating disorder a way to stay thin and not pregnant...so i need to chill the fuck out about my driver's test friday. i'm going to scare myself into failing. but my ability to drive will resolve so many problems. 1) more time spent with justin. a lot more personal time 2)ability to drive myself to the gym and work out as much as possible. plus adds positve endorphins. 3) will get me to school so i can live at my dad's instead of michelle's where i flee to my tower.
current mood:  lonely
current music: fiona apple - love ridden
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Sunday, November 7th, 2004
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7:25 pm - i had the sun in my hands, i had the sun in my hands, until you said you liked the rain
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my life is very balanced right now. just enough yin for it's yang. good: my brilliantly perfect boyfriend. bad: i need a place to live. so we saw death cab the other night at the warfield. and in the middle of one of their songs i hadn't heard that was on a compilation, we were making out, and i had this great epiphany. someone loves me. and i don't have to feel empty anymore. i've always felt my love for him, and i know he loves me, i just finally felt it. like it came through him to me. he's my missing piece. and i can just live day to day feeling like i have him to fall back on and i don't have to worry about if he'll still love me tomorrow.
current mood:  peaceful
current music: death cab for cutie - movie script ending
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Monday, September 27th, 2004
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8:40 pm - resurrercted
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and i quote myself from may 9th 2003
"will find another guy. most likey many from now until who knows. i will love some, not like some, and think i love some, but this is all the game of love. jay was wonderful then, but i must move forward in this adventure we call life. i will find that perfect guy...an emoish boy who will kiss me and hold me close, who is artistic, has a crooked smile and always looks as though he is pondering something...i'll find the perfect guy, the one i'll spend forever with, whether it's tomorrow or 10 years from now...sometimes there are guys who are temporarily perfect for you. like jay was. we were perfect then, but its all apart of temporarism. i dont want to foget our memories because one day i'll tell my children about my first love, but for now i will store them aside until i have closure..."
i love you emo boy.
current mood:  nostalgic
current music: gin blossom - 'til i hear it from you
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Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
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11:34 pm - My eyes could never never never keep their cool
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now i lay me down to sleep
current mood: melancholy
current music: red hot chili peppers - i could have lied
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Saturday, August 7th, 2004
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10:17 am - de javu
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( this time last year )</div>
it's incredible how i've grown from the innocent poppy punk girl to the lady (almost woman/sort of girl) alexa; the one without a title because she's comfortable with herself. but still, this time last year rachelle and i were staying out all night with boys and finding new beginnings and feeling liberated. but with shittier background music.
the same thing we did this week.
current mood:  giddy
current music: death cab for cutie - title & registration
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Saturday, July 17th, 2004
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4:29 pm - and when did your eyes begin to look fake
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) hemkesmewnakill = XBLaCKH0L3SuN
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: its like bananas in fucking pajamas
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: banana 1 and banana 2 justin 1 and justin 2
ziggykruger: hhahaha
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: oh shit they should get matching outfits like us
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: and they should be decorated with penises
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: and anal lube.
ziggykruger: 1 and 2 makes 1 superior, so they're justin1 and justinA
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: LOL
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: all right
XBLaCKH0L3SuN: whatever you prefer is fine
so i need to get my feelings straight before i screw everything up. it's hard to try to like someone new when you feel like you were meant to be with someone else. but then that someone else feels like he should be with someone else. time to weigh the options and make some lists.
current mood:  indifferent
current music: dashboard confessional - screaming infidelities
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Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
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12:01 am - make 'em say uhhh. uhhh. na na na na. na na na na
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so wow i'm giddy like a kid on adderall. once again everything happens for a reason. so this morning krstine comes over and i get ready and shes like bitching about why there's a reason for me to do my make up and get cute when we're going to the thrift store downtown. but my 6th sense knew. so we went downtown and stayed a little longer than expected at the thrift store. then we went to the candy shop that we never go to but today we each had like 2 bucks on us. then we went to the marina and sat on the swings and we were gonna leave at 2 but i thought lets just go home cause its hot. so we started on home and i wanted to go one way but kristine wanted to go another so we went her way. and right as we walked up to her house i noticed hazels car down the street parked in front of his house. and then she noticed someone walking out of his house and to his car. and it was him. so i yelled down at him and he drove backwards up the street to us and we chatted a bit and man i'm so excited because now he's not going to the army and that just made me so realived. not like wow he's gonna stay and so i can steal him and have his babies. hehe(my tainted thoughts) but like wow i'll get to hang out once in a while with the coolest guy in the universe who i do also care very much for as a friend. so he wants to have lunch some day and that sounds just dandy and a half to me.
in other news: i've become a myspace addict. my myspace profile
to boot = by far(my def.)
current mood:  relieved
current music: the clash - london calling
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
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11:24 am - and isn't it ironic...
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so i've been a little harsh. i shouldn't have said mean stuff about his girlfriend. she didn't intentually hurt me, it's not her fault he liked her and not me. and man he did some nice stuff for me. so a few weeks ago when i still had school he was in my 4th period class ditching his math class. so he was sitting near me and asked for my yearbook. so we exchanged and all that jazz. so i wrote some meaningful nice stuff in his but i tried to keep it casual so he wouldn't think i was obessing or anything even though i know he knows. well in my yearbook he wrote, wow. he said the nicest things anyone has ever said to me. he apologized and realized he hurt me and handled it so maturely. his extremely cute downfall is he is the worst speller on the planet, but at least he has his art. so after school i saw him and he was alone and he called me over and he was like, "so do you forgive me for being an asshole?" and i did and then he asked if i had seen his art at the show and i did and we were like yeah this 'pearl jam on the beach' is awesome. and he was like well actually i'm giving it to you cause i know how much you like pearl jam and stuff. he gave me his frikin beautful awesome art piece. then at graduation i was so prepared to say good bye and congrats to him but when the time came i chickened out. i stood in a field with hundreds of people as they hugged their graduates. but kristine pushed and yelled at me for a good 10 mins. and wouldn't let me give up. so i eventually made my way over to him and he hugged me and we talked a bit and took pictures and i felt so relieved. part of me is still half convinced that by writing this somehow he'll come back. not like i had him in the first place. but god its stressing me out. like 50 million people have said, "you know what you need? a boyfriend" well no shit. but i meet these guys at parties and they're all just not what i want. and then everyone says i'm picky. i know exactly what i want, but sometimes what i want doesn't want me. or it's wrong timing. or somethings F*ed up about it. i feel so incomplete and the only time i feel comfortable with my lonely self is when i'm at the gym or dieting or doing something to help me lose weight so that i'll feel attractive and someone will love me cause of right now "i'm a f*ing awesome chick" but that's just not doing it i guess. well i have conjunctivitis in both my eyes and it hurts and i din't get enough sleep but it might be getting better. but owe it hurts like a bitch. and my sister is having surgery today and i miss her and im kinda scared so i don't know. life is kinda tilted.
current mood:  sore
current music: maria mena - you're the only one
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Monday, May 31st, 2004
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10:34 pm - just a small town girl livin in a lonely world...
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well...haven't written in a while for a reason. so i'm getting over hazel. he has a freshman skinny cute ditzy girlfriend and they are just so fucking cute together. blahhhhhhh. barf. raaarrr. he barely even aknowledges me anymore. if i'm lucky and we make eye contact i might get a smile and a head nod. <~3 that kinda looks like a broken heart. well 8 days of school left. that's including 4 days of finals. nothing too bad to worry about. maybe math though. i am in love with my english teacher, well, not like that. she's so cute and fun. for our final we're havinf a slam poetry reading and setting up a little cafe with coffee and food and pillows and we'll all dress up like beatniks, or at least I will, and we'll all snap. snap. snap. snap. so i think i'm going to read a poem i'm writing about my mom at my age in 1977 in santa clara as a druggie whore. hope she doesn't find out im exposing her. i'll post it on here as soon as im done writing it. we were supposed to write limmeriks this weekend but i didn't do it so i guess ill make one up tomorrow in class or use the one i wrote in 8th grade. so our yearbooks look really sexy. meow. im pissed that im in the swim team picture but my name isnt under the caption with everyone elses. grr. i apid my 100 bucks to be on the team and went to practice 3/4 of the time. well hopefully i get this waiter job im applying for. or should i say waitress. o. i kinda like this guy. ive always had a thing for him, but some of my close friends also did and i never wanted to take a chance at it but now 1 has a boyfriend and the other likes someone else so now i don't feel guilty and im out of the closet with it. so we'll see where that goes i guess. hopefully things can only get higher from my low point. ~1000 times goodnight
current mood: indifferent
current music: feeder - high
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Monday, May 10th, 2004
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6:11 pm - quizzes to the max
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In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: almost, but i wont let him get the best of me
02. Bought something: got some new wardrobe on saturday, a coconut, and carrot juice today
03. Gotten sick: yes, allergies and a cough
04. Sang: yes
05. Eaten: yes
06. Been kissed: nope
07. Felt stupid: yeah, i called my peruvian exchange studant buddy hazel instead of hugo...i wonder whats on MY mind
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: i guess
09. Met someone new: nope
10. Moved on: i always think i move on from things with my great revelations, then don't...
11. Talked to an ex: yup, a few in fact
12. Missed an ex: naw
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: we didn't talk today...he gave me a head nod thing though...
14. Had a serious talk: erm...not lately
15. Missed someone: definately
16. Hugged someone: yup, thanks craig
17. Fought with your parents: nope
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: alllllll the time. god thats all i frikin do
Social Life
01. Best girl friends: kristine, rachelle, anni, katie, kim
02. Best guy friends: mikey, craig, scott, hazel
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nope
04. If no, current dating partner: a few dates here and there
05. Hobbies: pretending i can play more than 5 chords on guitar/ going to the gym
06. Pager: umm...not quite a drug dealer
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower:a good balanced combo of both, but im pretty loud and out there most of the time
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: a beautiful creme bmw
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: date
11. Where is the best hangout: railroad tracks
12. Do you have a job: a day or night one? no, but i'm looking itno getting one if anyone could please HELP!
13. Do you attend church: not anymore, thank god. hah
14. Do you like being around people: yup. i like party atmospheres
Who:
01. Have you known the longest: my family
02. Do you argue the most with: mr. doigny
03. Do you always get along with: anni
04. Is the most trustworthy: nikki
05. Makes you laugh the most: hazel
06. Has been there through all the hard times: nikki
07. Has the coolest parents: katie's mom is awesome
08. Has the scariest siblings: my little brother
09. Is the most blunt: rachelle
10. Is the smartest:anni
Personal:
01. Who is your role model: girls who work out at the gym
02. What are some of your pet peeves: people who wont be blunt and think it helps to lie ...ex: is this shirt ugly? nooo it looks great on you
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yup, but he led me to believe there WAS a chance
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: y e s
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: hah, that happened today
08. Would you rather be dumper or dumped? depends on the relationship
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": just a ship of relations
10. Want someone you don't have right now: YES
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: yup, i used to do that a lot
12. Do you want to get married: definately
13. Do you want kids: yup.lots of kids are fun
14. Do you believe in psychics:i have lately
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: i know i've met a few of my possible soul mates
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: my eyes
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: how complex my emotions are
18. Are you happy with you: internally yes, externally, no
19. Are you happy with your life: things could be different...but oh well
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: the H word sit.
current mood:  annoyed
current music: president's of the untied states of america - lump
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5:38 pm - MY version of breakfast at tiffany's
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You say we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know you just don't care
And I said "What about going to a Giant's game?"
He said "I think there's one coming up
And as I recall, I think we both kinda like them"
And I said "Well, that's the one thing we've got
I see you, the only one who knew me
But now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong
So what now? It's plain to see we're over
I hate when things are over
When so much is left undone
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Friday, May 7th, 2004
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6:07 pm - my tiny fantasy world has exploded
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well sigh. so hazel doesn't feel the same way i do. and i'm crushed. and i got my hopes up because i thought he'd ask me to prom, but he's asked everyother girl in the entire school except me. i feel like such a chump. but hey, he led me on. you don't say thank you by kissing someone goodnight. and that was our second kiss too. and i thought it meant something. well i know this is terrible and the girliest thing i have done in my life, but i swear it's because i'm kinda chubby. he thinks he's fat so he's been working out and dieting and he's like 5'9 155. he wants to see his ribs. well i'm 5'5 140. so how do you think i feel?? and i've noticed all the girls he openly thinks are hot or has asked to prom are extremely skinny. grrr. it's not fair. so now i'm pulling this girl bullshit and i've convinced myself that i'm fat and now i'm on a green tea diet. i've been drinking green tea for the past 3 days and occasionally snacking lightly. so here's the thing. that episode of friends when chandler meets monica when shes fat and she hears him call her fat so he goes off to college and she gets hella skinny and hot and she wants to have sex with him and then throw him out naked on the lawn...that's what i'm going to do. he's going to the army for 3 years in germany so i'll get thin and hot and he'll come back and i'll rub it in his face. wow this is shallow. but hey, i'm also getting in shape for myself. so it's not all him, this just motivates me more. hehe.
current mood: crushed
current music: deep blue something - breakfast at tiffany's
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Thursday, April 8th, 2004
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2:59 pm - i got some booty
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things are lookin up for me. finally over chris. woo! no more dirty little secrets. hazel and are are well, good friends. but who knows where thats gonna go. but...he did kiss me after a lovely day at the beach. and we're going to a giants game. ok so thats cool but we're keeping things casual. and since i don't want to be too attached to him i'm keeping things open. and i met this guy, mark. verrry cool guy. hung out last night. heh ;) and possibly again tonight. alrighty then. gotta go live up spring break a little more. outtie 2thousie
current mood: pensive
current music: pearl jam - tremor christ
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Thursday, March 18th, 2004
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10:04 am - i've been...fallin like the rain
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we'll 3rd day being at home sick :( missing a swim meet today...grr...pierced my belly button. at rachelle's the other night with katie, kim, and brit...i think it's intfected though sadly...i just wanted a cool story behind it. we used a frikin compass point...the compasses you use to make circles and stuff....sigh...i wish i had a love life. this time last year i did. i really dig hazel and we had a really good time on my birthday and stuff, but a) i don't think he likes me b) he's only going to be a civilian for 5 more months and c) i always see him with rediculous ditzy freshmen, not that freshmen bother me, just the one's in particular. well i'm hoping that maybe being on the swim team i'll meet someone. not that i'll take anyone, just maybe someone will all of a sudden appeal to me and we'll click and live happily ever after. hah. too much medicine.
current mood:  sick
current music: dog's eye view - umbrella
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Sunday, February 29th, 2004
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11:41 pm - as sandrine would say 'best night of my life bro'
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well, i met hazel. and wow i felt major connection. so much in common and just all around cool ass guy with charm and the package, well at least my type of package. well, not THAT package. but he like another girl. but she's hell of turning him down so there may be a chance but ergg this sucks cause i don't know if he's attracted to me att all or not or whats going on in his head. i mean we talked all last night at the dance and he lives like literally 4 houses down from kristine so we hung out today and i reallllly want to hang out with him on my birthday so we'll see how that goes. mixed signals everywhere man crazy. he's such a nice guy though. i mean, he even drove me home. crazy nice and ugh. i'm like excited but scared that he's not interested. blah. any help guys? oh and i wont see him at school tomorrow cause he's suspended. well, for his shirt but long story. well, i'm just gonna hope for the best because it actually seemed like there was a spark on both ends. ok, hope for the best
~1000 times goodnight
current mood:  confused
current music: journey - don't stop believin'
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
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11:19 pm - will somebody please get me my damn birthday wish!
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well i'm sad because my sister and i got in a big fight and she cried and stuff and urg she holds so much grudge. people need to let things go. my this song is beautiful. i really want to see the movie donnie darko. i've just heard a lot about it lately and it seems to look really good. will someone loan me some balls to go and talk to this dude?! i said something briefly to him today because we were both in line for dance tickets (yay hopefully i'll see him there). well i'm too tired and blah to write anymore. and sad becuase my sister thinks i need to lose 10 pounds to be 'model pretty'. errg. i try. ~1000 times goodnight
current mood:  distressed
current music: michael andrews - mad world
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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11:31 pm - i know what i want for my birthday....just costs my embarassment
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man oh man. i've never had a crush on someone who doesn't even know my name, well, besides a celebrity. but there's this one guy who is oh so attractive and is a painter a a h2o polo player.my goal is to have a full conversation with him before my birthday. that is 12 days and counting to get some balls. maybe someone can get me a hookup or something. i feel like i'm 10 watching titanic over and over getting off on leonardo dicaprio whenever i see him around. like today i saw him drive past when i was getting outta swim practice. a little eye contact made. meow. man i'm a crazy funny bunny girl.gah. this song is making me sad. about 2 close people deciding to live their lives without eachother like nothing ever happened. chris:( here, i guess this is for him.
I could use
A shot
Your novacaine
My soul's a fuse
Blows away your name
Then you can be the remedy
And I can be the enemy
And he can go and live as nothing
Then you can be the wanna be
And I can be the remedy
And he can go to hell for all I care
Say this world is not so shallow
When you can't beg steal or borrow
Save your breath your soul is hollow
And it's all too much to swallow
Take this souvenir
They can't deny you were here
This scar always there
To medicate your fear
Then you can be the remedy
And I can be the enemy
And he can go and live as nothing
Then you can be the wanna be
And I can be the remedy
And he can go to hell for all I care
Say this world is not so shallow
When you can't beg steal or borrow
Save your breath your soul is hollow
And it's all too much to swallow
the remedy....
Then you can be the remedy
And I can be the enemy
And he can go and live as nothing
Then you can be the wanna be
And I can be the remedy
And he can go to hell for all I care
Say this world is not so shallow
When you can't beg steal or borrow
Save your breath your soul is hollow
And it's all too much to swallow
ok. now let's all be happy thinking of mystery boy who's name is oh so sexy but i will not publicize...~1000 times goodnight
current mood: curious
current music: abandoned pools - the remedy
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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11:00 pm - i'll take a couple boxes of tylenol cookies...
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i have a fat head ache right now. swim practice today and went to the gym tonight. god i hate exercise. but i want to see myself as attractive. and be healthy and all that california jazz. hah. i say this as i'm eating a container of rich & creamy rainbow chip frosting and a glass of milk. so i've been really sad lately. i feel like a dry mermaid sitting in a small bathtub of water. i need my ocean. i saw big fish the other day. excellent movie. i feel a lot like that. i feel like i need a bigger ocean. blah. ~1000 times goodnight
current mood: sore
current music: yeah yeah yeahs - maps
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
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11:10 pm - quiznos commercial is frikin awesome man
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Right Now:
WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: my sister's black yoga pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: the roof is on fire
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: citris candy
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: dark and clear
HOW ARE YOU?: a bit tired, but kinda awake
Do you:
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: bus sickness
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: nail biting, obsessing, lip biting
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: depends
LIKE TO DRIVE?: love to chill out on that open road
TYPE WITH FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?: nope
DRINK?: a few times a year
SMOKE?: ganja once in a while
WEAR CONTACTS?: nope
HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?: nikki and casey
Favorites:
RELATIVE: my cousin andrea
TV SHOW: degrassi
MAGAZINE: jane
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: any fruit juices
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: kahlua
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: go to fun shops and big city with friends, if i have a few bucks
BAND OR GROUP: smashing pumpkins
MOVIE: romeo+juliet
FOOD: fried rice, fruit, and cresants
CLOTHES: my jackets....or my hats
HANGOUT: anyone's house but mine
FEELING: that feeling when you're really attracted to someone you don't really know and you see them suddenly and it gives you that boost of happiness forever...ya...
MUSIC: 90s alternative, +mucho mucho more.
STORE:any small quirky store in SF
MONTH: june
Future:
IN FIVE YEARS: working, happy, somewhere i love and a place of my own
TEN: married and hopefully a child or so
MARRIAGE SEASON: october
PLACE: elope in hawaii
HONEYMOON: same place
Have you:
BROKEN THE LAW: who hasnt?
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: sort of, but i always come back the same day
EVER CHEATED ON A TEST: yup
STAYED UP TILL FOUR ON THE PHONE: god, almost every night in junior high
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: hah. the window is basically my private entry
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yup
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: of course
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: at least once a week now
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: half-way
FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: no
FELL ASLEEP WHILE DRIVING: no
DRIVEN A CAR: Yes
EVER MET SOMEONE FAMOUS: Yes
WANTED TO DIE: Yes
BEEN ON A PLANE: lots
WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: my favorite place in the world
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yup
CRIED IN PUBLIC: Yes
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes
GONE TO CHURCH: yes
READ THE BIBLE: forced...
SEEN SOMEONE DIE: No
Love:
BOYFRIEND?: nope
GIRLFRIEND? nope....oh kristine...
SEXUALITY?: straight, but i'm known to bend a bit
CHILDREN?: i love kids. i want tons
CURRENT CRUSH?: a guy 3 years older than me that probably doesn't know my name
BEEN IN LOVE?: oh yeah
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER?: yeah..
BEEN OUT WITH SOMEONE?: Yes
TOO SHY?: hell no
BEEN HURT?: yeah
HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?: yeah
CHEATED ON SOMEONE?: sorta, but not really
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS?: no
WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: ::mumble::
Pets:
CURRENT PETS: my kittie edward scissor paws
BEST CURRENT PET: the one above
HAVE YOU EVER SHAVED YOUR CAT?: i wish...and it depends which one;)
Random:
WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: my journal
WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU: hit snooze
WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?: james dean poster, sprites poster, and petite etoile letters
WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?: flannel shirt and cut off sweats
VEGETARIAN? VEGAN?: i wish i could commit
THINKING OF RIGHT NOW?: only 2 more school days then 4 day weekend
WHAT DO YOU DO THAT REALLY PISSES OFF YOUR FRIENDS?: talk about someone non stop forever
DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: nope, but maybe soon at the jungle
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: pearl jam - ten
AFTER SCHOOL/WORK YOU: go to kristine's or my house and eat
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?: crimson
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: my friends, any sorta of artistic beauty, and MOST of all original one of a kind moments
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: paper moon
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: swim and paint
EATING DISORDERS: sad
PMS: don't catch me with it or you're dead
MARILYN MANSON: no thank you
SPICE GIRLS: HELLZZZ YEAH
PREMARITAL SEX: you gotta test drive the car before you buy it
JERRY SPRINGER: only with my dad
SUICIDE: bleh
SELF-MUTILATION: over-rated
SOUTH PARK: the shiznit
DREAMS: my favorite conversation starter
current mood:  listless
current music: bloodhound gang - roof is on fire
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Monday, February 9th, 2004
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10:58 pm - No. NO. NO!! Devil man! Devil 6-6-6, the mark of the beast! No! Naughty! Naughty jungle of love!
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just watched half baked. i love that movie b. i almost went to go light up in my room...then i remembered a)my sister would be verry mad if i smoked in her house and b) i have a doctors appt. for swimming. summer will come eventually. so i have been sad lately still, but somethings keeping my spirits going. not sure what that is. but thank god some of my wishes are finally working. but things i don't think, will ever be the same. although they could.
you know, i finally figured out, to me, what forever is. forever is for as ever long you want it to be. so i'll see you in forever. it's funny when people say, i haven't seen you in forever. it's partially their choice whether they go and see you or not.
eh. i'm tired and cranky. ~1,000 times goodnight
current mood:  amused
current music: pearl jam - jeremy
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